Life is freaking good, you know.. :)
I kinda regreted the past 25 years of my life because I never realized how great my life was. But thanks God suddenly I started to change. How I see people, how I see this world, it's somehow changed. I became happier, braver, and I'm more thankful for life. I used to hate the beach in front of my house, because it makes the weather extreemly hot during the day, and extreemly cold during the night. I used to hate the smell of it. I never appreciated it. And you must be thinking "How could you hate such beautiful thing? Are you out of your mind?". You're right. But now I realized how lucky I am, I'm happy to see the beach every morning before going to work, and I think to myself "How could I never appreciate this freaking beautiful thing in my life before?". Like seriously. It's so beautiful now. Hahaha.. Let me give you a glimpse of it ;)
And it's me every morning, enjoying the sight, being thankful to God! <3 p="">
But wait, can you see the fog? People have been setting the forest into fire lately and look, the fog's getting heavier than ever. I can't believe it! I know it's easier to fertilize the land by burning it, but come on, they should've known better. Indonesia has been covered by massive fog lately, and people are getting URTI (Upper Respiratory Tract Infection). Sumatera is not the only Island with the fog issues. Here in Celebes we're also facing the same issue, even it's not worse than Sumatera. And expecting the government to do something is like waiting for me to be bitten by a spider and become spiderwoman. Almost zero possibility. (Well, not really, I know they're trying. But maybe they supposed to try a little harder. Right?). Actually that's not what I want to tell in this posting haha. I mean let's hope for them to do the best, just know that the rain would clear the fogs, and let's hope God would make it rain soon, and don't get stressed, we can be happy again.
So no matter how the fog covered the town these days, it doesn't change the fact that the beach is still there and still beautiful as ever. The fog would be gone, but the beauty of the beach remains. Just like the little disturbances in ourlives would be gone, but our lives remain beautiful!
And as I started to see things differently, I realized that the beach is not the only beautiful thing in my life that I forgot. You know, I have tons of movie I could download everyday, "Superman is Returned", "Running Man", "We Got Married", "King of Masked Singer", "She Was Pretty", "Sassy Go Go", "Because It's the First Time", "The Flash S2", "Once Upon A Time S5", and even just naming it one by one makes me so excited! There are tons of delicious foods I could eat everyday. Hot pork, sweet ketchup pork, fresh fish from the ocean, my favorite 'ilabulo', fried banana (I know this sounds weird but I eat fried banana with spicy sauce haha). And so many other things. I have a very kind boyfriend I could talk to everytime, I have a family. And aren't they the most precious thing in our lives? :) Yes, they're annoying sometimes, but the love they give us, seriously, that's the best!
So, life is good. Bad things and mistakes just prove that we are alive and we are learning something new everyday. Don't try too hard to "search" happiness. It's here. At "home". Someone said, "we may travel to search but always come back home to find ourselves there." and that is so freaking true..
What kind of food do you love to eat? What kind of movie that makes you happy? What makes "you" happy? Try to name it one by one, and try to feel it, are you really happy now? :) And remember, it is "your" preferences. Never let other choose it for you. I love Game of Thrones. People said "you're such a nerd". Oh, screw them! I am a nerd. But then what? I'm happy :) I love listen to Westlife's songs. People said "you're so old". Oh, screw them! I listen to every new song, I bought new CDs, I love listen to them. But I can't lie to myself that until now Westlife's still the best in my heart, and I keep wanting to listen to their songs. So should I listen to songs people want me to hear? Or should I listen to what "I" want to hear? I love to live in a town more than a city. People said "Omg you can have everything in a city. Cafes, shopping mall, everything you need. Is there even any light or handphone signal in town?". Oh, screw them! There are lights and handphone signals here lol. So if people say I'm a suburban, should I live in a city to make them happy? Or should I let them think what they want and choose the life I want? We don't have any responsibilty to explain our choice to them. I've been having a lot of thinking these past few years. And when I started to choose "my choice", I become happier and happier. I listen to songs I want to hear. Watch what I want to watch. Live the life I've always wanted. I become more grateful for what I have. Become more thankful for everything God gives me. And I have more hope for my future, because I believe God would make it even greater than now. No doubt. Now I enjoy doing my job, because I know this is what I want to do. I even have clearer vision of what I want to do next. And there is no more regrets.
Life is good, right? Are you living a good one too? Hope you do! :D
